Fractals on Friday

A little half-hearted experimenting with colour sequences this evening. Feeling happy but rather drained after an inconclusive week.


Life's settling down rather well in the flat, although I'm encountering some mental blockages which take a lot of energy to overcome. A new situation requires new modes of adaptation, something I've never been particularly good in since I'm overly fond of routine and predictability generally.


One thing I greatly like, living on the third level, is that I have a good view over the rest of the suburb and can be treated to the most wonderful cloud formations at moments. We've had a fair amount of rain and stormy weather recently, the skies have been breathtaking occasionally. I've done a little experimenting with photographing the view from here, with rather disappointing results up to now. I'll attempt a totally manual approach soon, since most of my attempts have been either overexposed or too lacking in contrast. Also, to my great delight and increasing annoyance of the cat, I'm able to view the many birds that fly past at eye level, so beautiful and elegant to see. I feel priviliged.


Keep well...

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Wordless on Wednesday

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Points of contact, or lack thereof

It never ceases to amaze me how two individuals, in this case two ex-partners, are so adeptly able to miscommunicate for almost 100% of the time.

Just had a lengthy and unfortunately acrimonious exchange which left me puzzled, annoyed, frustrated and sad... all at once. Almost a record I suspect ;-)


Keep well...

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Fairy tales

The things that are most important are staring you in the face, the stories of life and becoming are being told and retold daily, hourly, at every moment.

Deal with it. (and click on the image for an enlargement while you're at it).


(Image taken from here)
Keep well...

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Fractals on Friday

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Wordless on Wednesday

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Self-reflection

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Fractals on Friday

Seriously uninspired today, everything seems to hurt right now... sigh...



Keep well...

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Wordless on Wednesday

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Wordless on Wednesday

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Moving on...

It's all done. The house has been emptied and sold, more than twenty years of accumulated memories and memorabilia have been sorted, redistributed, moved and/or discarded. It's been a somewhat painful, hectic and dislocating month, but one that in hindsight was long overdue.


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I'm glad it's done. The catharsis is complete, and even though the echoes will reverberate for the rest of my life I know that every event and every moment had it's place in the scheme of things. What we did, what we thought and how we acted became part of ourselves, for better and for worse.


I'm not proud of a lot of what I've done, yet I know that this was all part of becoming the person I needed to be. The only thing I seriously regret is that the children were dragged into the domestic trench-warfare, with far-reaching effects which also will echo on in their own histories.


We do what we can, we foul up, try to patch things up and plod on. Such is the life of a parent. Doing your best and failing anyway, hopefully equipping one's offspring with enough insight and tools to fix their own problems at a later stage. In the end we're all perpetrators and all victims, all rolled up into our own unique packages of muddles and myopia.


Time to move on, time to get my life back on track, time to continue picking up the pieces which to all intents and purposes seems to be succeeding. Keep well...

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