The summer has been a good one, relaxing in some ways, invigorating in others. The days are visibly shortening and for the first time this morning there was a slight chill in the air, the colouring of the leaves has quietly begun even though the days are still warm. As always, the world is changing, ever taking on new forms and discarding old ones, nothing ever remains the same.

My summer has been a mixed up, confronting but ultimately comforting one. I've managed to shed some of the ballast I've been carrying with me for such a long time, learned to relax more effectively and slow down a life I'd been wanting to drive at too frantic a pace in the past.

A lot of lessons have been learned, old habits and cravings are being discarded one by one and new life skills are being taken on board on an almost daily basis. Despite the pressures I'm still facing, I'm finding it easier to address these on a more rational, less emotional way which doesn't leave me in all kinds of knots for days on end.

I see my daughters quite often, on an almost daily basis at the moment. It's easier for them now, the two youngest are still on school holidays, live close by with their mother and have all the time in the world. The eldest comes along every afternoon, we still have a lot of issues to sort out with each other but discussions are progressing in an orderly, contained and constructive fashion. We've made a tentative agreement that she come back to live here at the beginning of next month and we're now working on the conditions on which this can be done. Time will tell if we're both being realistic and if the patience and/or cooperative spirit wil last.

Possibly one of the greatest benefits to come out of all the upheavals in the last eighteen months is the realisation that more is to be gained by
"going with the flow" to an extent, not worrying too much about consequences or possibilities and discarding regrets and
"what if's" which only distract from the potential of the present moment. It's a difficult concept to grasp after so many years of chasing the delusions of "progress" and "utility" which ultimately left me empty-handed.

Have a great weekend, keep well...
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