Quietude

Much is happening around me at the present time, the world I know is changing almost by the moment, people and events move on at an extraordinary pace, occasionally leaving me mentally breathless. In all this, peace of mind is probably the greatest asset I can have right now, enabling me to maintain a reasonably overview and keep tempers down.


Peace of mind, for me, is an ultimate quality which I work towards on a day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute basis, always trying to maintain a sense of balance and acceptance of the situation as it is without trying to be judgemental or trying to find ways to change the unchangeable. Peace of mind isn't a fixed, static quality either. It's something that comes and goes, works or doesn't work in a particular situation depending on my moods and circumstances, a goal to be worked towards for better and for worse.


I'm rather tense on occasion, too often apprehensive for my own good and tending to be negative, all too eagerly signalling the bad, unworthy and dysfunctional elements in myself and the world around me, and feeling bad about them. One of the larger areas of work for me has become one of gaining acceptance of myself and my life situation as is, working toward solutions but also realising that matters can't and shouldn't be rushed, that my lack of patience should be kept in reign to work toward action-directed, useful and realistic solutions.


I've made more than enough mistakes recently, and more will follow in the coming period. The one major goal I have at the moment is to get through this divorce as quickly, effectively and preferably painlessly as possible, keeping an eye on the welfare, the needs and the wishes of my daughters in what's going to be a messy period for them too.


The quiet time I need in the morning is perhaps the most important time of the day. It gives me time to stop, reflect and crystallise my present situation without all the daily distractions which make impossible for me to do so during the day. I do my exercises to get my body up and running properly, and in so doing freeing my mind also. The sounds of nature which enter the house through the garden doors from the canal and the nature reserve, as well as my own garden, have a soothing and inspiring quality I find healing. I wouldn't want to miss these moments for anything.


Today is going to be a busy one. Several appointments to be attended to, action to be taken on several scores. I'm feeling confident about today and know that, even though I do stuff up occasionally, I've always achieved more than if I hadn't done anything in the first place. As is said, the hardest part of any journey is taking the first steps. Time to move on again...


Keep well...

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