Moving on
My time here at the clinic is almost done. In a few days I'll be leaving, hopefully for good. The statistics aren't in my favour unfortunately but, as is said, the challenge is contained in daring to continue the journey and not give up when the going is tough.

It's been a challenging, confronting period of my life. I've come to understand a lot more about myself, I've come to understand much more about how people and social groups work and I've learned to accept my own limitations to an extent, some of which have been hard to take and causing frustration.

In the same way the Moon has grown and dwindled during the last month, the same is happening to me. Periods of growth and reflection are followed by decline and introspection, each following the last with exacting regularity. And yet, at the end of each period I am left with something new to start with, a fresh start with extra inspiration for the future.

Looking ahead there are new challenges to be found in the labyrinth of my life, new minotaurs to be slain and more moments of wanting to turn back and abandoning the ideals I've set myself. To the best of my ability I will take up these challenges but I will also fall again, needing to learn the lessons and standing up to continue. I have no idea where I will end up and somehow it's not really important, the only thing I do know is that I need to trust my intuition and follow that.

Just go out there and remember: life isn't complicated at all!
It's simple, simple, simple...
Keep well...
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It's been a challenging, confronting period of my life. I've come to understand a lot more about myself, I've come to understand much more about how people and social groups work and I've learned to accept my own limitations to an extent, some of which have been hard to take and causing frustration.

In the same way the Moon has grown and dwindled during the last month, the same is happening to me. Periods of growth and reflection are followed by decline and introspection, each following the last with exacting regularity. And yet, at the end of each period I am left with something new to start with, a fresh start with extra inspiration for the future.

Looking ahead there are new challenges to be found in the labyrinth of my life, new minotaurs to be slain and more moments of wanting to turn back and abandoning the ideals I've set myself. To the best of my ability I will take up these challenges but I will also fall again, needing to learn the lessons and standing up to continue. I have no idea where I will end up and somehow it's not really important, the only thing I do know is that I need to trust my intuition and follow that.

It's simple, simple, simple...
Keep well...
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Labels: introspection, labyrinth





3 Comments:
Bart, as your words reveal, it must be a difficult journey. I don't know what to add.
I liked the post and the one (about childhood) below.
Keep marching!
I'm happy you'll soon be out and continuing on the path you've set for yourself. If you ever need to chat let me know.
I see you as a strong individual who will make it just fine, and here's why, you are staying the course. See that's where most people who have problems with sobriety begin, they don't stay in the rehab program for the entire term prescribed; they go home early.
My brother never stayed the course, always leaving early.
hugs and love,
Lori
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